32 and lost

My birthday on March 9 went away just like that, well, not quite "like that" like that, tho and I dont mean to be ungrateful, but it went so-so. Except that my beloved hubby took me out for dinner with his parents and both his niece and nephew -thank you, sweetheart :)

I know I haven't been on here for quite some times, I just didnt sure what to spill out...few days ago I went to see my obgyn and had another ultrasound, my ovarian cysts had reduced 1cm (kinda gewd news) and he told me that the chance for me to have a baby is slim with the presence of endometriosis. He told me to have it removed by another laparoscopy and get preggo by invistro...WOW! I told him that I need some times to think about it and on my way home I thought about Tahitian Noni Juice that my sister suggested me few months ago. I took the juice and consumed it for about a month with just so minimun dosage and voila! My cysts reduced. So I bought another 1litre of TNJ and this time, triple the dosage. That's what the brochure says...chronic illness should increase 3x from the normal dosage. I'm determined now to consume the juice for at least a month and will have another ultrasound to see how it goes with my endometriosis and cysts. Thank GOD my hubby does understand my feeling towards this fact, he seems more thoughtful and always makes me feel better about myself and the situation we're dealing with.

Geez, my life is complicated with family problems, health and money issues. I know there's no end and I'm gonna increase my quality of life with the new me inside...I will pray more, keeping the positive outlook towards everything, back to college and have more faith in GOD that IT will give me the best in life and one more thing, I'll give more.

Tomorrow is Monday and I'm going to fast.....wish me luck!

histeria

Udah di kantor lagi nih,
sitting in front of my puter, watching people came in, greeting 'em one by one, pasang senyum manis (atau dimanis2in?), basa basi (basi beneran), headset udah terpasang dengan sempurna di kepala, siap2 pencet telfon (bukan angkat telfon, karena yang biasa diangkat kan gagang telfon, kl punya gw ini gak pake gagang, pakenya headset, jadi kl ada telfon masuk, tinggal pencet 'headset').